Wedding Happenings

So it has been awhile since I last posted and well things have been crazy around here to say the least, starting at the beginning of December I started my final push to the wedding and getting everything ready for that and for company to be here. Leading up to the wedding I was so nervous about everything and making sure that not only was my house perfect for company but that my big day came off without a hitch. We definitely had some bumps in the road in planning, our preacher ended up not being able to perform the ceremony, the girl who was taking pictures got sick, money got tight, you name it we had to deal with it. But just when I thought everything was going to fall apart and things were the darkest, everything just worked out and fell into place. The wedding and the reception were perfect. I could not have asked for a better day, and in the end all that really mattered was that I was marrying the man of my dreams and the love of my life.

Now it is the new year and I am looking ahead to great things for this year. We have alot to work out and to put into place but I am confident that we can do it together. I am looking to try and still do something from home so that I can be with our son and still bring money in and my husband is working really hard at the trucking job he has. We are hoping that by the end of the year (well that is my goal anyway) we will be in a position to buy a bigger house. I have learned alot along the way about going with the flow and just working with the problem instead of pushing ahead and getting upset.

Hopefully this year with be pretty stress free as well, of course there will always be stress but I hope I have learned to deal with it better. I have also learned through this whole wedding planning that while some people are dependable others just are not and that is not my fault (I used to blame myself for others actions) it is the fault of the other person.

All and all everything is great and I am looking forward to a very happy and productive new year with my husband, son and family.

First Real scare as new mom

A couple of weeks ago my son started to get a stuffy nose which turned into a running nose almost as quickly has it became stuffy. He had, had this before, so I called doctor just to make sure I did not need to bring him in. My doctor is really understanding and knows as a first time mom I am going to be a little cautious so they said as long as no fever, he was alright and to keep an eye on his temperature, take him in steamy bathroom if that would help and call if I needed anything else. Sounds simple enough right, so I did these things and then on Friday of that week at about midnight he started to sound really horse and while that scared me I kept it together and took him in the bathroom and that seem to do the trick. Then at 5:30 in the morning he woke up crying, having a hard time breathing, sounded like he had a frog in his chest and I could not get him to calm down, I knew right away that something was not right and I yelled for my fiance and told him we needed to take our son to the ER. Of course I forgot the monitor was on and when I yelled I am sure I nearly made him pee his pants because it woke him out of a sound sleep and our monitor picks up even the slightest sound. But anyway we get ready and take our son to the ER, there was not much of a wait and after the triage room my fiance took him back to be seen by the doctor and I stayed out to register him. That task took me maybe 5 minutes and by the time I got back there my son was down to his diaper, getting a breathing treatment and was diagnosed with the croup. This sound completely scary to me but come to find out while it can be serious, it is fairly common in a lot of kids from infants to up to five years old.

Of course the doctor did xrays to insure that he did not have something in his throat as the doctor said one time they thought it was the croup and the child had a feather in his throat. The croup can most times be treated at home but when you don't know what it is you are dealing with your first instinct is I have to get my child to the hospital because let me tell you this croup sounds terrible and the doctor even said that it is very scary if you have never heard it or dealt with it before. So that made me feel better and they gave us papers telling us how to treat him and three medicines to give him to help with the first few days of his symptoms. Prednisone, abuterol and an antibiotic for good measure just in case it was caused by bacteria but most times it is viral and just has to run it course. There is also a chance of dehydration so pedilyte was in the mix as well. I do not believe in medicines for no reason so I was reluctant to give the antibiotic but I did. The first few days were fine but in the middle of the week last week my son got the most awful rash on his bottom, so I call the doctor again because you could not even touch him without his screaming it hurt so bad, diagnoses yeast infection from the medications. So back to walmart to get even more stuff to treat my son, athletes foot cream and Vaseline was the treatment.

This week he is better from both of these things but poor little guy, also cut a tooth during all of this. Of course there have been times when I am calling the doctor and even after the ER visit and the doctor there telling me that most times it is treated at home, that I thought wow these doctors most think I am nuts for going to the ER and calling them but here is my advice to anyone, never let anyone make you feel bad for taking care of your child and seeking medical attention or advice. If they do it is time to find a new doctor, now mine did not make me feel this way it had more to do with me then anything, but even in that case, you are never a bad mother or a worry wart for making sure that it is indeed nothing serious.

I am not a medical doctor and none of this is to be taken as medical advice it is just my experience and how I felt when my child had his first illness other then just a stuffy nose or running nose. Lysol has become my best friend and we practice good hand washing, because these are your first line of defense when dealing with any kind of cold or flu.

Take care and never worry that someone thinks you are over reacting because you are not and you have to do what is best for your child.

This year so far

This year has been a roller coaster of emotional ups and downs to say the least. In 2008 my stepdad passed away whom I was very close to and then about a month after that I found out I was pregnant with my first child. I was scared and happy all at the same time. I have to say finding out I was pregnant did not take away the sadness of losing my stepdad but it did make things a little easier to deal with it seemed and it also gave my mom something to look forward to after having suffered such a loss. When in October on halloween to be exact we found out that my dad has to have emergency surgery to repair a ruptured in his colon. When they were in there they found out it was tumor and before the test were even back, the surgeon was pretty sure it was cancer and it had spread throughout his abdomen and they did not have much hope that he would live for very long. I did not lose faith but I knew it was not good either. He did really well after surgery but then took a turn for the worse. He was not awake or aware for alot of the time and spent alot of time on a ventilator, but at one point he did improve enough that he was off the vent and had a treach and for one night I got to talk to him where he was aware and knew what was going on.

There were times were he was better and then much worse and over the holidays last year were very touch and go but at one point he was able to come to rochester and be here at the nursing home, but that was very short lived, I spent alot of time over there talking to him and just being with him and one night I went back and he had taken a very bad turn for the worse and had to be transported to the hospital, he was only there a night or maybe two (it is very blurry to me) and the doctors were calling me telling me there was nothing more they could do and that they suggest I take him off all the meds and just let nature takes it course. Of course I was very pregnant at this point and this had to have been one of the most stressful times of my life trying to decide what to do and what would be best. With the help of my brother I decided not to put him back on the vent and the next day we ended the meds, I explained to daddy what was happening and that I was so sorry I could not do more for him and I stayed with him the whole time. That is honestly probably one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. Of course after that there was trying to plan his service and everything but that time is kinda of fussy, there was just so much going on I just went through and did what I needed to do. (During this whole time not only was I pregnant but was also still trying to get my degree). I took time of from my last class because things were just to stressful and I had to get ready for the baby to be born.

Then on April 16th 2009 my son and the light and love of my life entered the world and nothing has been the same since and I could not be happier about it. Things have been crazy, long nights of hardly no sleep, worrying if i was doing everything right and just the normal first time parent things. I am loving being a mommy and cannot imagine how I lived my life without him.

After he was born in July I finished my final class and in August I graduated with my Associate of Science in Criminal Justice. And at the end of August on the 29th the man of my dreams and the other love of my life asked me to marry him and I said Yes. I am so excited and although things have been totally messed up in planning this wedding, they are starting to turn around and things are going to work out, maybe not exactly how I wanted them to be but very good just the same. When it comes down to it, it is not about the ceremony or anything else it is just about us being married and loving each other.

Of course all these things have lead to another adventure I am on now. We have decided that because what my degree is in and it being so hard to find a job right now and that it is better for the baby if I am home that I will not work and I will be at home with the baby, there are other reasons as well, such as child care costing more then what I would be making. But as everyone knows the economy is not great so I have been trying to find a work at home job and that is what alot of this blog will be about. My adventures as a first time mom, being a wife and searching for a job that I can do at home and still be here with my son. The search is going alright and I want to help others with there dreams of working at home and maybe I will be able to do that. Of course I also want a place to share my life and opinions and maybe along the way help someone but sharing the things I have or am learning about life love and the pursuit of happiness.

I will end for now but please check back for new post about all kinds of new and fun things or just for a daily dose of th adventures in my world.